What Musical Theater Has Done To Me

It has happened. I officially have been inducted into living the musical theater life. I dont really know how to feel about it. I guess it happened a while ago, but I just refused to actually believe that it was true. I think it started with singing "West Side Story" in the shower, or maybe it was when I picked up my first music book of "Next to Normal". It might have been when I started noticing that I pick up on que words and start belting a song. Whatever it was, it happened fast. At this point its a steam training rolling with nothing to stop it. Then my truck got broken into this morning and it was this conversation of Facebook that I had, that I realized that I no longer could deny I was a musical theater guy.

Mark Williams Dear Person who broke into my truck last night,
Thank you for being an honest thief and only steal $11. Even though you ravished my wallet, you didnt take my Id, Debit Card or my Ipod. So either your really dumb or just charitable. (ps. Shut the door next time, you will run the battery down.)
-Mark
Mark Williams- pss. Scratch that, bastard took my Ipod. Hope you like showtunes, you ass.

Mandi Irwin- sorry cuz... i've had mine broke into 3 times and it is the grossest, most violating feeling

Mark Williams- jk. i found the ipod. it was in my man purse.

Mandi Irwin- haaaaaaaaahahahaha that just topped off the showtunes comment

Mark Williams- haha i know, what has happened to my life?

Mandi Irwin- i'm just glad they didn't steal the man purse with the ipod in it ;^P

Scary??.......I know...Here's the thing though. Musical Theater people are normal people.....arent they? Okay, maybe we can sing about everything that happens in our life. We also can quote lines from about every play produced at the local theater. And Im not going lie, maybe wearing a costume every night is pleasant......but really its not strange.

Backtrack a couple years ago, I would have been the last person to get on stage and sing. It just wouldnt have happened. How I dress now......I would have probably made my own life a living hell if I would have dressed like this in 2007. My outlook on life is a more "Hills Are Alive With The Sound of Music" rather than "Boot Scootin Boogie". Times have changed.

The upside of things, I wouldnt change where I am at for anything. I have made wonderful friends, learned more about myself and really focused on improving my talents. I cant see life really being any more upbeat than it is now. But really? Showtunes on my Ipod, a man purse, weekly vocal lessons and scripts all over my dresser. Dont tell my brothers.

Middle of Scar Pimp

So as most of you know I am in the Scarlet Pimpernel at the Hale Theater, which I absolutely love. I pretty much love everything about it. I love the show, the cast, the music, the costumes, just everything. Its wonderful. We just reached the halfway point in the show, which kinda makes me sad because I do not want it to end, but at the same time I can see everyone preparing for what their next auditions are going to be. Which that is always exciting to see if we are planning on the same shows. Lately my life has been planned around what shows that I want to be in. And that is how I have been setting my life. Scar pimp now, Hairspray, Tuachan or Jackson Hole for the summer, then coming back and jumping back into something. I guess its a risk to assume all of these different shows will even want me, but its a risk I am willing to pursue. Makes life a little bit more exciting.
I am living the single life again, which is right where I like to be. Having a girlfriend was a waste of time and money. I recommend just hooking up from now on. Anyone who wants to live a theater life needs to accept this. Ps. Never date someone because everyone else wants you to. It never works out in the end.
Just moved into a new condo which is also a new fresh start to my day. Living the dream in a bachelor pad in Orem. I definitely still live with the Holcombes on a daily basis I just have clothes and a bed somewhere else.
Other than that, life is back to where it should be. Its getting closer to Christmas which is kinda exciting. The show will end after Thanksgiving and I need to get away before I audition for the next show. Steve wants to go on a cruise or NYC. I think I need to go to Bali for Christmas, that would be fun. I have to fly to Texas for my sisters wedding on the 23rd of December and fly out the same day, I land in Vegas which is a good place to be for Christmas. Agh so many choices. The big 25 is right around the corner. Probably time for a sweet tatoo or something.
Yeah.....Bali, Vegas, Tatoo. I think this might be a good end to 2010.

Thetrevorproject.org

In response to the September youth suicides due to bullying. I want to say, it gets better. I am a survivor of being bullied through Jr and High school. I was different in a community of similarities. I understand the loneliness and rejection you might be feeling. The pain almost seems unbearable. Take action for your life, not against it, seek help from a parent, counselor or for the youth of the glbt community, thetrevorproject.org. Be proud to be different. No matter what makes you individual be happy. There is no race, religion, or sexual orientation that qualifies you for any sort of bullying. One day you will be accepted. You will be happy. I promise it will get better. Seek help. Please call or visit thetrevorproject.org.

Sometimes...

Sometimes it is better to force yourself to be with someone rather than to be alone.

Its a nice day for flying.

As I was driving to work this morning I started to think about where I was at with my life right now. I started thinking about all the things that "create" a good, successful life. Then I made my checklist.

What makes a good life:
1)A great job-------check
2)A nice home-------check
3)A wonderful girlfriend----check
4)A decent truck------check
5)A slew of friends and relations----check
6)A good standing before God---Check
7)A healthy body----check

So all in all I dont have anything to complain about. I am happy. I have my share of trials, but overall I cannot complain. I just want to soak it all up right now. For once in my life, I dont have a reason to run or leave. My wings just dont feel like going anywhere. I will probably need a stretch before the year is through but right now at this moment I am okay.

I got cast in The Scarlet Pimpernel at the Hale Center Theater Orem. That was definitely something I have been working towards. I play a small role as a butler named Jessup, but the experience I have been having so far is amazing. I have truly learned so much about myself as an actor and what I am capable of doing. I love it. The Girl, The Grouch and the Goat is playing there now and my best friend Chase Ramsey is the lead. I recommend seeing it over and over. Its sooooo funny.

I am dating a girl. She is nice. She smells like a floral arrangement most the time. She understands that I fall asleep before midnight. She knows I cant play boardgames longer than 30 minutes. She likes to travel. She likes to sing. She knows how short my attention span is. But from what I can tell she kinda likes me. Weird.....I know.

School is back in session, sometimes I miss going to a school. Its funny how growing up I hated school with a passion. I cried every day in Kindergarten. It was a tragic experience for me. I eventually came to like it, then it was just something I did. Now that I do no need to be in school, I really want to learn more. Maybe Ill jump in and start taking some classes. Who knows.

So there we have it. In personal family news, my sister Melynda is getting married. This makes me happier than anything else. She deserves the best. I hope she gets everything that she has ever wanted.

I am grateful to be right here, right now, with the right people.

"Its a great day for flying"
-Xander
(The Girl, The Grouch and the Goat)

On Second Thought......

On Second Thought..........Lets scratch that last post.

Ive decided to change my mind.

Which I have the right to do. Shhheeesshh Its my blog, and my life......

Being Miserable is Going to Be Fun.

I'm Too Young To Date.

I was sitting in church and the speaker started to speak about dating. During his talk he said, "I want all those who are old enough to date, to listen". Then it hit me.

I am definitely not old enough to date.

Some would say that being 24 years old is plenty old enough to date or that I am just trying to find some sort of excuse for not dating at the moment. (and by "Some", I am referring to all you kids who are married and are saying this) But I really dont think I am old enough. I try to think about having a relationship and the realize how much pressure that it will bring into my life. Then I start thinking about how stressed I would be if I had all this pressure of being a perfect boyfriend, then I start thinking about a mix between how much tire pressure is in my truck tires, how much it would cost to replace them and then that finally leads to the cost a girlfriend would ensue......Thats enough to give me an ulcer. So clearly I am not old enough to date.

I think one day though I will be ready. Maybe when I am not so selfish, or maybe Ill get lonely.

I think maybe even one day Ill grow up.............no promises.

Im just not old enough to date.